While I'm Waiting

I have wanted to be a mommy since I was...I don't know...4. :-) Those of you who have known me this long know that - even then, I was bossy and had everything ALL planned out. I treated my poor siblings like they were my children (and maybe still do - Sorry, guys!). I started babysitting a 3 year old and set of newborn twins when I was only 13. So...I just...I can't get enough of children.

There's this little boy...his name is Dillon. He's in my classroom, and he's a foster child. (B/c of that, I will be unable to post pictures or give any more details about him online. Email me if you want pics :-) In October 2009, Aaron and I jumped at a chance to "adopt" the little guy...it's a LONG story (you know how my stories tend to be), but one laced with God's timing and goodness. We had the privilege of keeping him for a whole week last week while his foster parents had some personal matters to tend to.

It was fun to "play Mommy" for real. It was tiring. It was fulfilling. It was fun. It was busy. It was full of answering questions and singing lots of silly songs. It was full of smiles and hugs. And I could NOT get enough.

Sending him home was one of the hardest things I had ever done. I have struggled at times to keep my emotions under control (I know this is very difficult for some of you to see in me :-). This is going to happen soon...sooner than I can know, but it will. And we can't wait. We will "foster" him for 6 months and then petition to adopt him, and he'll be all our until the end of time. We can't wait (have I mentioned that yet?).

As I was pulling away from his foster parent's home after dropping him off, I was bawling (as you know I would be)...and this song was on the radio. God is so good to give me songs in the exact moment I need them.

I don't know what you're waiting on. I know people waiting on all sorts of things...a job, a career, an education, houses, a bill to be paid, love, money, etc. But man, this song...it has helped me so many times today just stop and worship in those moments when I start to waiver and ask God what's going on and why things aren't happening when I WANT them to. I trust my God. He has this all planned out. We have already seen His hand in so many things and ways this has all worked out so far; He has never failed me yet. We truly want His will.

I've posted the words to the song, as well as the YouTube video below. Enjoy and be blessed.

While I'm Waiting - John Waller

YouTube Video

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord